Well, it's been about 8 months since my last post?
I've been up to several things since I last posted. First, I had another IVF in November. I just can't seem to keep myself away from that place! I had 14 eggs? and wound up with six 3 day embryos. Transferred 2 and guess what...I didn't get pregnant.
Still have four frozen and am now on to something new. My 50 year old mom is going to have 2 of my frozen embryos transferred to her!! My mom had to have a lot of tests and a lot of meetings, but she's now cleared, so we'll be transferring in about 6 weeks maybe.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Monday, July 30, 2012
Still Here...
I've took a break from the blogging...actually forgot it existed for quite sometime.
I'm doing well enough. Of course, I'm sad that we will never have a biological child, but I mostly try not to think about it. I might think about it a couple times a week, so not too bad! I'm over Thailand adoption, I believe. Our state has a very nice infant program for people under 40, without children, so we are on the "waiting list"...that's what they call it, but really it's the waiting list to get on the waiting list! Haha. So maybe we will get on the real waiting list next year! I'm excited...not sure how hubs feels. I think he's just tired of baby talk, so he's not too interested right now. Not like he says no we can't adopt, just I don't want to talk about it for a while. He knows we are on the list, and there is no obligation at this point. I feel very confident he will come around in due time.
It is very nice to be done with IVF, very nice, indeed! It's nice to have an end, even if it's not the end I pictured. At my WTF appt., doc said it must be my embryos b/c he can't see any other reason that I am not pregnant by now. That, even though the embryos look good, they may not be in actuality, and if we ever do go back to IVF, he suggests CGH. Part of me believes him...he's highly regarded, been an RE for 30+ years, so he knows his stuff; certainly better than I do. Part of me just can't believe it's the embryos though. I am 27, my husband 30, so how could it be our embryos! I still sorta think it's my uterus, but he says there is not reason I can't get pregnant with a unicornuate. It just seems crazy to me that every step of the way there is a new bump. The reason this all started is because of a hydrosalpinx. If it weren't for that I should have been able to get pregnant naturally (even with unicornuate). So i take care of the hydro....uterus should have been the only roadblock at this point. 1 IVF and 2 FETs later, still not pregnant. Dr S. convinces me it's my lining and NK cells...so i go with that, we fix those problems....1 IVF and 1 FET later, and now it's my embryos that are the issue! How many problems can one person have! Whatever. No need to analyse.
I'm doing well enough. Of course, I'm sad that we will never have a biological child, but I mostly try not to think about it. I might think about it a couple times a week, so not too bad! I'm over Thailand adoption, I believe. Our state has a very nice infant program for people under 40, without children, so we are on the "waiting list"...that's what they call it, but really it's the waiting list to get on the waiting list! Haha. So maybe we will get on the real waiting list next year! I'm excited...not sure how hubs feels. I think he's just tired of baby talk, so he's not too interested right now. Not like he says no we can't adopt, just I don't want to talk about it for a while. He knows we are on the list, and there is no obligation at this point. I feel very confident he will come around in due time.
It is very nice to be done with IVF, very nice, indeed! It's nice to have an end, even if it's not the end I pictured. At my WTF appt., doc said it must be my embryos b/c he can't see any other reason that I am not pregnant by now. That, even though the embryos look good, they may not be in actuality, and if we ever do go back to IVF, he suggests CGH. Part of me believes him...he's highly regarded, been an RE for 30+ years, so he knows his stuff; certainly better than I do. Part of me just can't believe it's the embryos though. I am 27, my husband 30, so how could it be our embryos! I still sorta think it's my uterus, but he says there is not reason I can't get pregnant with a unicornuate. It just seems crazy to me that every step of the way there is a new bump. The reason this all started is because of a hydrosalpinx. If it weren't for that I should have been able to get pregnant naturally (even with unicornuate). So i take care of the hydro....uterus should have been the only roadblock at this point. 1 IVF and 2 FETs later, still not pregnant. Dr S. convinces me it's my lining and NK cells...so i go with that, we fix those problems....1 IVF and 1 FET later, and now it's my embryos that are the issue! How many problems can one person have! Whatever. No need to analyse.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Negative
Well, that's it for me and ivf...at least for a while. Now, I've got my mind on Thai adoption. I'm gonna think it through for a while then probably get the ball rolling. It will take approx 3 years for the whole Thai adoption, so it'll still be a good while, but I'm excited!
Friday, June 22, 2012
5th Transfer Complete
Just got back from my transfer. It went so much better than last time. Last time they filled my bladder to where I thougt I would die. This time they emptied me quite a bit from where I overfilled myself...I wasn't uncomfortable at all this time.
Good news is, we were able to transfer 2. Bad news is, they were the only 2 (of 4) to survive thaw. No matter what result I get on pg test, this is my last transfer for at least 2 years...maybe ever who knows. Pg test isn't until 7/5!! 13dp5dt...whaaa, last time I had my beta on 10dp5dt.
Side note, I'm on my iPad so my writing is probably lacking, and I cant do paragraphs on here.
Quick Update
Going in for my transfer today! Heading back home tomorrow!
Lining was 9mm as of Sunday, so clearly either Via.gra or delestrogen works...last fet lining couldn't past 7.2mm. This new doc really knows what he is doing!
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Catching up!
Wow, I haven't blogged in forever!
I started my meds for fet a few weeks ago. Heading to ny for intralipids on the 12th, then off to Vegas next Sunday (17th). I'm excited and nervous, as usual.
We have four frozen blasts, will be transferring two! I think my beta pg test will be around July 2...just realized that is less than a month away!
There have been a lot of bfps in blogger land lately! I'm so happy that some of these women who have been trying 8, 10, 12 years are finally getting their good news! Maaaaaybe, I'll finally have a good update soon. I'm pretty sure I have never had a positive blog post.
My hours were cut at work from 25 hours per week to....5 hours per week. Barely even worth the effort, but I am honestly not very upset. I went grocery shopping, made tons of phone calls about meds etc, made a cheesecake, did some cleaning, reading, watched breaking dawn...it has been a nice week! About the meds phone calls, I have realized you just can't trust anything to do w insurance. First, we had all of those issues where they tried to take 7k of my 15k lifetime max, which thankfully we worked out; after like 8 months of phone calls. Now, when I tried to get my Lupron, first they say $325, I always pay $17...next time I talk to the pharm, it's $125....I get a letter from ins saying it is only covered for endo, uterine something, and....female infertility....umm hello, first of all I've been on this now 5 times for $17, and if I don't have female infertility, no one does! Anyway, I got it worked out, but it's just the point that I have to watch them! Also, Vi.agra in feb cost $280 for 40 suppositories, in may I got 56 for $90...I'm in the process of appealing this, so we will see. Point is, be careful w your insurance!
I'll probably update more once I'm in Vegas, and things are actually going on....I'll at least update WHEN I get my bfp in July!
Interesting tid-bit: I am having my transfer 6/22, the same exact day I had a transfer last year....Let's just assume that is some sort of good sign...obviously grasping for straws here! lol
I started my meds for fet a few weeks ago. Heading to ny for intralipids on the 12th, then off to Vegas next Sunday (17th). I'm excited and nervous, as usual.
We have four frozen blasts, will be transferring two! I think my beta pg test will be around July 2...just realized that is less than a month away!
There have been a lot of bfps in blogger land lately! I'm so happy that some of these women who have been trying 8, 10, 12 years are finally getting their good news! Maaaaaybe, I'll finally have a good update soon. I'm pretty sure I have never had a positive blog post.
My hours were cut at work from 25 hours per week to....5 hours per week. Barely even worth the effort, but I am honestly not very upset. I went grocery shopping, made tons of phone calls about meds etc, made a cheesecake, did some cleaning, reading, watched breaking dawn...it has been a nice week! About the meds phone calls, I have realized you just can't trust anything to do w insurance. First, we had all of those issues where they tried to take 7k of my 15k lifetime max, which thankfully we worked out; after like 8 months of phone calls. Now, when I tried to get my Lupron, first they say $325, I always pay $17...next time I talk to the pharm, it's $125....I get a letter from ins saying it is only covered for endo, uterine something, and....female infertility....umm hello, first of all I've been on this now 5 times for $17, and if I don't have female infertility, no one does! Anyway, I got it worked out, but it's just the point that I have to watch them! Also, Vi.agra in feb cost $280 for 40 suppositories, in may I got 56 for $90...I'm in the process of appealing this, so we will see. Point is, be careful w your insurance!
I'll probably update more once I'm in Vegas, and things are actually going on....I'll at least update WHEN I get my bfp in July!
Interesting tid-bit: I am having my transfer 6/22, the same exact day I had a transfer last year....Let's just assume that is some sort of good sign...obviously grasping for straws here! lol
Friday, April 6, 2012
FET Consult
I had my FET consult yesterday. Doctor says that it was 50/50 chance of getting pregnant with one blastocyst, and he believes I will get pregnant with one of these 4 frozens I have. The current plan (once again) is to do 2 blastocysts this time...hubby is still not 100% on board with this, but I will work on him through the coming months. We'll see if my doctor changes his mind last minute again about transferring two.
I will be getting my intralipid infusion this time, just in case that is the reason I'm not pregnant yet. I will have to go to vegas 2 days early. Then if I am pregnant, I will have to drive to my doctors PA clinic to get my second and final infusion. How obnoxious that I have to do all of this to get some intralipid, but if that is what helps to get my pregnant, I will glady put in the effort.
It is unbelieveable how much effort having a baby has taken. I just thank goodness that we've had insurance this whole time. We may have enough to cover this frozen transfer too! So even though we've been incredibly unlucky, we've been really lucky too and I'm so thankful for that!
I will be getting my intralipid infusion this time, just in case that is the reason I'm not pregnant yet. I will have to go to vegas 2 days early. Then if I am pregnant, I will have to drive to my doctors PA clinic to get my second and final infusion. How obnoxious that I have to do all of this to get some intralipid, but if that is what helps to get my pregnant, I will glady put in the effort.
It is unbelieveable how much effort having a baby has taken. I just thank goodness that we've had insurance this whole time. We may have enough to cover this frozen transfer too! So even though we've been incredibly unlucky, we've been really lucky too and I'm so thankful for that!
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